I remember the person I used to be. I remember him very very well, and I am proud of him and also of who I am now. Genuinely proud, with love and kindness and compassion, and with sadness. And when I play this song , it feels very much that both that person I used to be and the person I am now are experiencing it, simultaneously. I sway from the pain and sadness I felt in my heart at the time to the compassion and love I feel in my heart now, and its all for the same person, for me. And for the first time in ever my life, I look back at that person with love, with pride, with appreciation, because he never gave up. He held himself with his values, his courage, and his own arms, when he would drift off for showers that lasted 15, 20, 30 minutes resting his chin on his arms as the melancholy leaked out of his pores. He faced crippling, life long depression and made a life of service for himself. This would be what he would be to the world, pushing forward in every way he could, alw...